Grumph.

[ewt]

Ugh.

Throat is sore, it's been sore on and off all week feeling slightly swollen but I think it might be actually properly irritated now as well.

Kodaly exam is going to involve a bit more practise than previously anticipated, particularly of the handsigns. So, no Aikido for me tonight. GRAH to that, I wanna go Aikido, but passing tomorrow's exam is kindof important too...

Didn't get other academic stuff done. Did practise horn quite a bit, which is good. Might do more of that this evening, as I've a lesson tomorrow and it would be nice for it to go well for once.

Did have salad for lunch, but then had pasta and cheese later. I wasn't actually physically hungry. My brain seems to want the satisfaction of something warm and cheesy, or at least savoury, every few hours, whether I need it or not. Not sure what to do about this. At least it was wholewheat pasta, and I didn't succumb to the boxes of Kraft Dinner. Perhaps low-calorie cup-a-soup things would be useful but they really are foul and full of yuck. Suggestions? Miso soup is an idea but somehow doesn't quite appeal. Chocolate also appeals but I think I'm probably better off, at this point, eating wholewheat pasta and cheese or poverty noodles and eggs than tucking into bars of chocolate. Fruit and other moderately healthy sweet things don't really appeal; various herbal teas don't really catch my fancy, or not unsweetened anyway. Maybe I could get some of that peppermint and licquorice tea, that was quite sweet on its own, without being as sweet as the Bengal Spice stuff (which is lovely but not the flavour I'm looking for, either).

I think I'll have bagels for dinner, and grab some for breakfasts later in the week as well.

There was something else but I've forgotten it now.

Off to teach trumpet in Bethnal Green.

Trying to make more public posts again these days.

Comments

[feanelwa.livejournal.com]

Hmm. Sounds to me like there's a thing stopping your body from realising that it's had high-calorie food - and if it didn't taste like high-calorie food, it thinks it hasn't had any. Maybe your intestines are getting a bit thick round the edges, and you need to eat a big pile of All-Bran? (Or, many small piles of All-Bran so you don't die of boredom!)

[ewtikins.livejournal.com]

Sounds to me like there's a thing stopping your body from realising that it's had high-calorie food

This seems accurate. I've realised in the last half-hour that it could well be PMS, although when I think about it I do seem to have low-level munchies much of the time.

Maybe your intestines are getting a bit thick round the edges, and you need to eat a big pile of All-Bran? (Or, many small piles of All-Bran so you don't die of boredom!)

Strangely, All-Brain with salt on seems vaguely appealing. I do get a decent amount of fibre in my diet most of the time and I haven't noticed any obvious evidence of intestinal problems. Worth a try anyway, though.

I'm also wondering if it's endorphin-related. Pasta and cheese has always been big comfort food for me, so maybe I crave it when endorphins are low for other reasons.

I ought to start keeping a food diary again. Le sigh.

[pfy.livejournal.com]

All-Brain with salt on seems vaguely appealing

That's the problem, then. You must have died at some point and turned into a zombie. Mmmmm, salty braaaaiiiinnns...

[yady.livejournal.com]

Usually when I can't stop eating I lack something. Often something as obvious as protein - but if you have fair amounts of cheese that doesn't make much sense.

Hm.